Thursday, May 22, 2008 @ 8:25 AM
3am went to bed, Yet, I can't get to sleep. Damn thoughts swirling in my head... Then I thought: Perhaps I should write a story, A story with an ending that the least I'd hope it become.
It's too bad that I'd to go into NS in like... less than 20 days? I'll be in on 10th June, So not a long wait to me. But since it's not a lot of time, I'll need to rush my story out. Cause it'll be a novel(Chinese of course) A novel of my story, With him, Her, Myself, All of us, In it.
Seriously, I didn't pay much attention to what YJ told me. Well, he said I could have be a good novel author... So, now I'm giving it a shot, I guess. But I do wonder will I be able to complete it before NS... Anyway, His story came into place again: Probably a broke up I guess. That means no happily ever after, And again, something had proved pointless, Which is exactly I predicted, and exactly I don't want it to happen.
I told one of my friend: Sometimes I just wish I'm wrong, But emotional endings are always so not dramatic. In a sense that I seen it through, Well, In certain way, It's not a good thing. Don't ask me why, Cause if I said I don't know, I feigning, And don't hope that I'll say I know, Cos I don't want anyone to get involved too deep like I did.
The price of that deep involvement... Is way too big... Just don't risk it.
Anyway, Yi Wen, How did you know my blog? I was pretty o_O when i saw that name came into my taggie. But oh well, I guess Im pretty free nowadays. I'll give you a SMS if I'm going down to NP then. :)
If loving someone is to make her happy, then I guess I had failed, and I'd failed terribly.
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Wednesday, May 21, 2008 @ 6:09 PM
Don't really have much to write bout... Perhaps there is, Just that it's rather like... The emotional thoughts? I reckon that's what it should be called... But well, many didn't really believed it... Since I'm always acting like I don't give a damn...
Oh well. Anyway, I'm addicted to Gidden... Or δΉζε books and novels. And weirdly enough, Manda seems to got infected by this addiction too... Heh, maybe it's book is really nice :) Nice to the extent that... I actually thought of going Taiwan to get all his books. Haha... I might do that ^^
But again, his books did made me realize a lot of stuffs. Sometimes, I do wonder, Can I ever learn to face things like how he did?
To Pei Yuan: Severed friendship is still a broken bridge: I'm still standing on the other side, watching how are you, how you'd been, but cannot do anything... because, although I waved at you, you had ignored my existence.
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