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1.
About someone...

You're reading Souless
I'm Leia.
Call me whatever you want,
Cos it's merely a name.
If you're looking for me
Don't.
P.S.
Yeah I know. Simple blog.
It's just my life story.
Anyway, get to the point.

There is a hidden link.
Find it,
And you'll see the darker side.


2.
About past...

Song of Solo
 Within 180 days,
If there is no changes here,
Its when my existence faded away.

Be a witness of my story

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Credit to
Daphne


3.
Witnesses of my existence
Haru Deon

4.
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6.
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Saturday, January 26, 2008 @ 8:18 PM

I found the greatest weakness...
Of my own.
Again...
Surfing friendster...
Just to past some time.
But too bad,
I just didn't resist myself...
I look at the old pics of my poly friends.
Lots of memories...
From the Telematch...
Chess committee...
And a few of some random old mate's pics...

I admit.
I don't enjoy my memories.
They just scorch my psychological self.
And it hurts...
But, why I just can't let it go?
Sometimes...
No, at all times...
I had been asking myself.
Why?
But, I never had an answer.
Maybe that's the cause of everything...


Many said, memories are sweet.
To me, it's merely a wound that never heals, and it just keep bleeding... keep bleeding... inflicting searing pain... till the day I finally gave in to the hand of Death...

Yours Truly; Lorenzo
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@ 1:26 PM

Wrote lots of posts...
On papers.
But it seems that pretty much it's worthless.
And...
I'm getting lazy too.
Haha..
There's like 3 A4 size for me to post...
And in chinese.
Ha has. Double difficulty. =.=

These days...
Met up with someone I'm not suppose to...
Kept hearing her name again and again...
Aik just didn't realize...
Every single time he mention her name...
I'd go all quiet...
Until I dragged myself back to reality.

Wondered what exactly is her to me...
It's funny, that it turn into this...
It'll be even more ironic...
If she ever saw these stuffs.
I'm just another emotional weakling.
I'm just a plain loser.

If time would reverse...
I should never had initiated that convo.
I should never had agreed upon that 1st outing.
I should never had been staying out late with her.
I should never had been giving in to her.
I should never had been care so much bout everything.
I should,
Just erase my own existence from the start.
I'm worthless to everyone.
I'm nothing less than a burden to all.
I am hated.
That's all i need to know,
I guess...

If I ever would leave this place...
It'll still be this reason.
This very searing reason...


Anyway,
Ks, did you already got married?



Things always get complicated, when one's emotion became involved...

Yours Truly; Lorenzo
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Tuesday, January 15, 2008 @ 10:03 AM

1月7日，11点56分

到沛元家楼下
也不知道有没有结果地等
回忆很多。。。
感触。。。也很多


秋千在风中
微微地摇着
游乐园的木椅
也随着那风
把已残破的记忆
一点一点地补上

好久好久以前
我曾在那木椅上
听他诉说心事
也曾在秋千上
陪她荡着秋千

想起她多少次
一个人流着眼泪
任性地发小脾气
和开心地嘻笑着
还有和他
与我无所不谈
心事也毫不隐瞒
说到我也曾哭了

风 停了
补起来的记忆
也随着风的离去
而消失在天际
记忆划起的涟漪
开始渐渐平静

过去，已经无法挽回
就让这痛
随着风远去吧。。。


没想到你的恨，能够让我痛到如此地步。。。


Yours Truly; Lorenzo
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@ 8:02 AM

1月6日，凌晨～早上10点

等伊敏买饮料时，
无意中看到MC king 过世的头条
感觉怔了怔。

忽然感叹，
人生似乎会瞬间结束。
就算你是1岁，
10岁。。。
或者100岁，
很有可能在下一秒
你的意识就会在这世界。。。
永 远 消 失

人生无常呀。。。
想做些什么事
还是尽快去做吧。。。
我还不想有那么多遗憾
唉。。。
问人生，
为何生离？
为何死别？

只不过，我大概永远都不知道答案吧。。。


生离死别已是人生常事，但为什么没有人能对此感到麻木呢？

Yours Truly; Lorenzo
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Thursday, January 03, 2008 @ 11:59 PM

Was going off...
And just suddenly,
I went to Peiyuan's blog.

I saw that.
She had never, ever,
ever...
Regard me as one who she cared at all.

I drawn my conclusion.
Whatever, whatever she wanted to do...
It's no longer my business.
I do not want to bother any,
any,
any,
of her willful behavior.

Memories just seems too distant from who you are now.
I rather time just stop.
But it will never...


I finally understand, I never was cherished by you, as this ripped my last hope of you apart.



Yours Truly; Lorenzo
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@ 10:07 PM

Few days of new year...
Didn't have any big changes.
Other than I would be starting something...
Something I first try it now.
Well,
Anyone guess that yet?
Lols.
I doubt so.
Er Herm...
Ok.. here i go.
I'm gonna initiate a relationship!
YES! MY FIRST!
Lol. I'm lame.
But at least I sorta got over shadows of previous matter.

Well, Now there's only these few people know...
Li Ying, Yi Min, Aik, and Hui Yi (This is her :D)
But well, Hui yi have a strong resemblance with a pri-sch friend.
That name is Hui Yi as well...
But my friend's name is 慧怡.
Don't think it's same character bah.
But well, she looks like her in some way too.
Hmmm. But anyway, just like her.
Oh well,
Wish for success for me. :)

Now i recalled..
Quite long since my last optimistic post.
Maybe I should try to post this kinda stuff more often...
Emo is not good for health anyways. :)

When dawn arrives, terror of darkness at night disappeared completely.

Yours Truly; Lorenzo
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SOULESS
get your codes from: 1 2 3
Wednesday, January 02, 2008 @ 10:34 PM

31st December, Last Day of 2007.

I was hesitating..
Hesitating, to find out the answer, or not.
I'd wanted to go...
But...
Well, PY's answer gave me the decision.
I gave it up.
I completely gave it up.
I don't want to know anything anymore.

Accidentally saw the National Day parade book...
That hooks he memory with her back...
And it scorches, painfully.
Another small stacks of SISTIC tickets fell out...
It's the ticket for Singa-popera.
Another lash to my heart.
I still remember...
That day...
Me, Cass, PY, Aik, and YJ...
And her, Cat.
Now she had forsaken me.
She had hate me.

Anyways, went to Wai Chien's BBQ instead...
Along with Aik, and Shi Rong, aka ShadeX.
Mandy, Hui Ping, Webster, Jia Quan...
And.. Ren Jye, Shawn, Wai Chien there...
Oh ya, and Kai Ming...
They sorta having nice convos around.
Well, I just hang around...
They seems to be having fun making funny recipes...
But anyway, nothing bad happens. :)
We left at 11pm thereafter.

Went to Boon Lay..
Met up with Yi Min, Li ying & Hui Yi (You'll see this name often later)
Strolled around Boon Lay Street area...
Went for countdown at the nearby parade square.
Other than Hui Yi,
The rest ran off.
Obvious goal they have. =.=
Anyway, briefing thru the small stuffs...
The countdown began.

"Five..."
I recalled the long walk from Marina bay to Vivo with her...
"Four..."
Pictures of that NDP day came thru my mind...
"Three..."
And i remember that time how insanely worried when i lost track of her...
"Two..."
Then... she told me that she just hate me, hate me for who i am.
"One..."
I tried closing my teary eyes, avoiding anymore flashbacks...
"Happy New Year!!!"
Now, I lost a friend... a friend that i once truly care for.

Good bye, Sien Wei.


I am tired, tired of this endless hatred of a friend that I once cared. Now I will leave it to the hand of memories, and forever seal it into the grasp of Time.


Yours Truly; Lorenzo
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