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1.
About someone...

You're reading Souless
I'm Leia.
Call me whatever you want,
Cos it's merely a name.
If you're looking for me
Don't.
P.S.
Yeah I know. Simple blog.
It's just my life story.
Anyway, get to the point.

There is a hidden link.
Find it,
And you'll see the darker side.


2.
About past...

Song of Solo
Within 180 days,
If there is no changes here,
Its when my existence faded away.

Be a witness of my story

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Credit to
Daphne


3.
Witnesses of my existence
Haru Deon

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Sunday, November 26, 2006 @ 10:54 PM

Life starts out with nothing but yourselves.... and after that, you're raised. Till 18 years old, you still own nothing, in precision. After 18. you'll realised: nothing belongs to you. Your life, your things, your time... even your freedom. None, will belong to you.

Till one day, you'll meet someone. He/she will show you the true meaning of life, and he/she became part of you. Love. That's what human call it to be. Happiness filled the emptiness within yourself, and you think life is beautiful. Sweet.

Then, something happen, and you lose your other half. You found yourself lost. Nevermore you think life is meaningful, and neither you try to seek a new goal. And here, sorrow and sadist filled your helpless mind. Pain.

Some might never go further then that, and some did. If you got through, more of these sadness means nothing but a test. But for those that ends here, your life ends.

Life, how complicated. People die, babies born. Still, no one will ever find out why were human beings were borned, and why were there emotion which filled our brain.

No matter what, some had thought god had created this world for us to test ourselves and whoever passes it, goes to a paradise. Crap. Who will do all these stuffs to test their creation?

Still, life have to go on. A long road lies ahead, yet this is a final road that i can take. After reaching the end of this road, no more rewind, neither returning back to the starting point.


Life... how complicated.

Yours Truly; Lorenzo
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Saturday, November 25, 2006 @ 1:47 PM

Huh... i was a little suprised. My father gave me 50 bucks for my birthday... Seems like he knows that he had lost track of my likes and dislikes... but, he still care bout me, i guess. Anyway... just got 2 sms wishes from Elaine & Cass this early morning and one MSN wish from Zu xian,then from Pei yuan sms, and one more from friendster testi from Kar seng(seems like constant testi keeps friends together, don't they?). HeX... still Cass & Elaine are the best combo: sms at bout the same time, and called me 'lousy' at almost the same time... They're gonna make a good pair huh? Haha joking joking... Cass gonna kill me if he saw this. :P

Anyway, i thought i could go for K box, but it failed.. sad. But then, can't make it. Yong Jie a little dissapointed whatsoever. But still, gonna live a better day than tomorrow. Can't held on to the past over time, right?

Life sucks, but it's bout our way of living and thinking, not about what's happening and happened. Having a very own way of life will eventually make a meaningless life into an oscar awarded movie, like Forrest Gump. His life was lived to the fullest. That feather at the end of the movie just gave the same thought as me: Life is like a feather floating in the air. You can never predict it's destination, and you never be able to tell what eventually will come, but, living the fullest life while you're still alive, it will be the best gift you'll receive throughout your life.

Life. How complicated.



Yours Truly; Lorenzo
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Friday, November 24, 2006 @ 10:38 PM

Just didn't get to work... haiz. Well... don't even feel like going home, so i just take the opposite side of the bus stop, and take 105 all the way till Serangoon.

Through the trip, while looking at the unfamiliar scenery, i kinda thought of lots of stuffs. Travelling alone allows me to really reflect on myself completely... i sort out quite a lot of stuffs... but, looking at a few couples did make me felt a sense of sadist. Seems like it's still going to be sometimes till i'll get over it.

While getting around in the bus... weird gossips heard all around... from loud talkers and big speakers. They sat behind me, and while i dozed off... i heard what they're saying: Leo is handsome.... Annie's friend did what what what... the whose whose new album really is nice... whatever... just around the corner of everywhere gonna be this kinda stuffs. The strength of words.

Still.. i called Joanne to void my job booking for tomorrow, but seems like i need to find a replacement for me. Kinda impossible, but neither can i just go, cos i can't get a leather shoe of my size. Damn it. I know it's hard for Joanne, but i don't have any choice either... sorry... gotta bother you at this time when you're sick.

Stupid feet. Darn big.

But through like 4 hours of that aimless travelling around, i finally got back to the 105(yeap, i seems have some affinity with that bus) and took it till Jurong East, and just changed a 334 to get home.

Tired, but i seems to be happy.

Still some sense of loss, but... it feel good.

Yours Truly; Lorenzo
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@ 2:00 AM

I'm nothing. I'm just nothing. Why in the world am i here anyway? To be broken into pieces? Or just suffer to death? I never wanted anything more than my limit, and all i want is just little bit more freedom, yet i was unable to do it. How useless me... In the past, listening to your words is part of life. Later, being with my thoughts, but you noticed my change... after that, i just wanna pursue what i really wanted, but... why are you pushing me so hard...

I just wanna live a normal life like everyone else... but why can't i just do so? why can't i even go out with my friends for a short supper at night? why can't i even work overnight at my friends' place? I have way too many doubts, that you will never answer. I'm tired... i don't wanna just fall asleep... but i am really tired. My exhaustion had marked my limitation...

But, ask yourselves: do you really know who am I? What i like? Who i love? What i hate? Or might even, what's on my mind??? NO! YOU KNOW NOTHING!!! YOU KNOW NOTHING BUT WHAT YOU THINK I AM?? I AM NOT A FREAKING PUPPET OF YOURS AND I AM A HUMAN!!!

Now... how i hope i just could leave my life here. The significant hatreds.... those hurting scars... no one ever ask them. How i am thankful that i had cass as a friend.... without him im probably even more negative and perhaps... not here anymore.

Yours Truly; Lorenzo
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Sunday, November 19, 2006 @ 2:41 AM

Kao... i don't like people to tell me what to do, but still... there are these idiotic people just like to command me like their baby sitter & still so feel damn "rightteous" bout their freaking command. I just sooo damn pissed. Grrrr RAWWWR~

Oh man... moreover more & more works, then now also becoming a little sian diao lei... haiz. Anyway, i don't know who's reading all these stuffs anyway, so i wouldn't really limit my words here...

Hmm... i don't know if this going to be...
Even if i saw her face to face, no words came out from her still. A really big mistake for me ever to appear here. Shucks. Perhaps that's why i'm unattached ever before... man this's going to be so crap & people gonna make fun of this.... but whatever, i care not.

Ok. Now stuffs with this gathering thingy. I don't know my sec school friends planning, but some practically bacame pissed with the discussion & got attitude(yeap, pain in the ***). No result for planning on 19th Nov 2006 whatsoever... so things shifted to perhaps 25 Nov, i think. Erh? Lol, that's my birthday. Freaky... sometimes i just wish for that day to come, but now, i just want to stay like this. Growing up, although it's not a bad thing, but it will never be as happy & carefree as now. Things tends to become memories after they expired. Friends became further apart, and gratually lost contact. Clinging onto memories still, give me some sense of real loss... and even some times, droplets tends to run away from my eyes. Lol... another thing for people to laugh at. How i wish time doesn't exist... how i wish Good-Bye is impossible in this world.

My words came straight from my heart.

Yours Truly; Lorenzo
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Thursday, November 09, 2006 @ 6:27 PM

Oh man... darn tiring and exhausting day... i have to go some where near to Sim Lim Tower to buy wires, pliers, and screws(SCREW IT! LOL~). Those darn shop are so hard to find! One of it which sell screws is at an "ulu ulu" valley near a bike shop, then the one that sells pliers are way back around 200 meters from the previous screw shop. And the last wire shop, what can i say? I didn't get to find it, so i just settled with another shop just inches away from the plier shop. The total is out of what i'd estimated, by around 5 bucks(Let me see... screws are 12 bucks, pliers are 29.5 bucks, and erm... wires are 12.6 bucks at half a kilogram...). Yeap. Expensive stuffs, but hope we get good grades with it and it's not wasted =D

Orh Damn! I haven't buy the macromedia dreamweaver book! Oh no~ gonna be broke again damn it =X

Yours Truly; Lorenzo
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SOULESS
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Tuesday, November 07, 2006 @ 10:40 AM

Haha.... can't imagine what a hard time i had during the last S&W lesson... right before last week i'm still panting like heck and hell over it, but now, not even a sense of tireness... LoL guess my stamina rate and recovery rate had increase significantly. Well... i still sucks in being a goal keeper, since i allowed 2 scores from the opponent team(AND THOSE WERE EASY CATCH AND I MISSED IT~ WTF)

But still, perhaps i should get into some sports after end of this semester. Perhaps street soccer should be good =D since Benjamin & couple of my old pals are playing too, along wth my younger sis's friends... playing tennis will be good as well... can know more friends as well lol~ HeX seems to be a lot of stuffs i can do. Oh yeah still have to go out for K box & LAN with the good old pals... seems to be busy all around =X

Yours Truly; Lorenzo
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